DEAR MY BLOG...

Dear My Blog..

i wanna say sth to u..but i know u wont respond to me..but i know u will listen to me..i know u understand me more than anyone else..i know how i can trust u more than anyone else..

dear my blog..

today is a real day for me..the day that i feel the relief..the day that i feel the worries..i burst out! i cry! at the same time i am happy..i am happy because i got friends to share what i feel..but still i feel bad..

dear my Blog..

can u see me crying? cant u at least hush me..today..for the whole day..i have not uttered even a word..i am lost..i feel extremely exhausted..i cry a lot due to this extreme emotional exhaustion...i need my mom's shoulder for me to cry..but i am afraid that she wont accept my unacceptable disgusting tears...

dear my blog...

could please tell me..who really i am? plz..talk to me..i need your support..i dont know if iam being too childish..thinking to much on this stupid matter..i need IT now..

dear my Blog..

do u have the power to change what is fated for me? if u do..plz..i want my IT..only IT has the cure for my pain..

dear my Blog..

could plz help me to ask God..why he chose me to go through all this? why He is so cruel..i dont have the strength to face this...i shivered last nite..doesnt God have heart seeing me suffer like this?

dear my Blog..

u see me laughing? actually i am crying..i miss myself..

my dear Blog..

how i wish i am not myself..how i wish iam not this weak..